New Year's didn't exactly feel "new" this year.
Like that magic you feel when the calendar flips over. It just wasn't quite there this time. 2017 flowed into 2018, and the First Week of the Year feels the same as last week. I woke up January 1st with the same anxieties running through my head. The "New Year" couldn't quite erase the problems of last year. And I couldn't quite put my finger on why. Why didn't the reset button work this time?
The question has been swimming around in the back of my head like a confused penguin all week. I haven't really stopped to think about it until now, when I was writing a letter to my fren Aimee, who makes me happy and inspired. So this post is sponsored (unwittingly) by her.
Maybe it's this: maybe I don't need things to be "new" right now.
Maybe they are beautiful and good and right-for-me just the way they are, and maybe I just need need to learn how to fully appreciate them.
I think I just need to learn how to live the life I have right now.
For the most part, I love everything about it. I love college and I love my friends and the future is this wide open thing that I'm equal parts confident and excited about. But at the same time, I get way too stressed about it all.
This year, I want to learn how to thrive where I am. 2017 was the "New Year". College and emotions and new people and SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED.
2018 will be the year for making peace with it all, learning how to love it, and just living this life. :) Cause it's a good life. :)
How does your 2018 feel, and what does new mean for you?
