Monday, February 16, 2015

Life Right Now

Hi!

I haven't posted in a while....blogging is hard.  Life has been good!  Busy, and good.

Musical season ended a month ago tomorrow, and....the songs are still getting stuck in my head, taking turns tormenting me throughout the day.  :)  Now, auditions for the spring play have come and gone, and I've been cast as Brooke, an inexperienced British actress.   It'll be a fun part that challenges me as an actress!  I'm excited.

In other news...I started a writing group at Sumner, something I've always wanted to do, and we've been working on a book.  It's cool to see people all come together, all of them with different talents and interests!  I love it and every time we meet, it makes my heart very happy.

Words are amazing.

Anyway.  We'll publish it through Createspace on Amazon in the next month....just ordered a proof copy of the book - it's almost 200 pages long!  I can't wait to see the hardcopy.

Shoutout to the amazing people who helped me edit it, and made my life a lot easier by showing me formatting tricks and such...thanks so much. ;)

Random question: What happens if Pinocchio says 'my nose is going to grow now'?

Thanks for reading!

~Caroline M.  :)




Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Excerpt: Night Lily, Chapter 1-2

An excerpt of one of my recent projects, Night Lily, a contemporary mystery.

Night Lily
Chapter One: The Color of the Sky
Lema’s eyes skipped over the carnage. The town was in flame, the houses trampled, people screaming and dying and fainting…
It was a good book. Short and entertaining. All Lema had time to read at the moment. It kind of fueled that dark, brooding side that she couldn’t show around the others.
Lema stood from the park bench, sighing. For a brief moment, she looked over at the young man sitting on the bench on the other side of the park. Then she shook her head and walked away, eyes glued to the pavement. The sky was blue, not a cloud in sight, but she didn't notice.
***
That was the day she forgot everything.
***
HONK! Lema looked up from the sidewalk in time only to see the blurry, red lights of the pickup swerving off the road towards her. It was almost like a warning…but then again, not. Because if someone was trying murder her, they wouldn’t warn her, would they?
HONK! This time, Lema did not hear.
Black was the color of the sky, thoughts faded to nothing.
***
“Can you hear me?” No. She could not hear him. “Miss, can you hear me?” No. She could not.
***
She wasn’t in the park anymore. She wasn’t on the sidewalk. She wasn’t on lying on the street, unable to move, body dashed against the concrete.
Where was she?
____ sat up and felt surprisingly well rested. Her mind felt calm, empty – like a perfectly quiet lake. In fact, her mind was completely empty.
“What is my name?” ____ said aloud. She was alone in the room. A few moments later, a doctor walked in. “Miss, you’re awake!”
It wasn’t funny. But she laughed anyway, for a reason that not long ago would have been significant. “Where am I?”
“In a hospital. You’ve been badly injured.”
For the first time, ____ looked down to see the bandages around her arms. And the bruises that hugged her skin in more places than she could count. She stood brazenly, locking her eyes on the doctor. And she chose the question that was demanding her attention the most. “What,” ____ practically whispered, “is my name?”
The young man shook his head. “I do not know.”
***
No one had seen the accident. There was no license plate to search for, no footprints to track, no face to match…
And ____ couldn’t remember. The doctors said her brain’s memory center had been irreparably damaged; they said she was lucky to be alive. If she had fallen a couple degrees to the other side, she would have been completely paralyzed. She was definitely lucky to be alive.
But ____ didn’t know what it was to be alive. She could not remember what her life was.
She didn’t let them keep her in the hospital overnight. She could walk, she could talk, right? But she couldn’t remember. And so she asked the paramedics where they had found her. And then: “No identification at all?”
They shook their heads. “All you had with you was a leather jacket…and this book.”
____ took her things with hesitation, and put the coat on. “I’m leaving,” she announced. “Thanks for your help…tell me if you find anything on the driver.” The doctors didn’t protest as she walked briskly out the doors. When ____ stepped out of the large, double glass doors, she stood absolutely still for a couple minutes, taking in the world. The sky was gray, with large clouds rolling in over the city's horizon.
Then she continued on her business-like walk towards the nearby park. Muscle memory made her automatically reach into the inside of her coat; her fingers found a pocket sewn into a seam near the zipper. ____ pulled out a small card. On it was a miniscule magnifying class and a name. She stared for a while, considering it, then nodded.
“Lema.”
The world was deaf to her realization, and Lema kept walking down the street, tucking the business card back into her pocket.

Chapter Two: Nameless Faces
When Lema arrived at the park, she saw no sign of an accident. They must cleaned the place up quickly, she thought. Or else…then she wondered how long she had been out. She had forgotten to ask. It could have been hours….or days. Lema shrugged the question off, because there was no way for her to find out. She couldn’t remember what day it had been when she had been hit.
No one else was in the park. And so she wandered the trails, taking in the fresh scenery with eyes that were seeing the world for the first time. Small, squat bushes, lonely benches, and a smattering of flowers that looked as if they were more dead than alive. Idly, Lema wondered why she had been at the park. She found nothing about it appealing. Then, with caution, she walked toward the street and stood on the sidewalk, staring at the little restaurant on the other side. Nothing happened. She pulled her jacket around her and crossed the street quickly. She didn’t know where she was going, and for some reason, this didn’t seem to bother her.
***
Rounding the corner of Marnal and Cotswarn, she bumped into a young man. He reached out to steady her.
“Oh! I’m sorry,” she apologized quickly, “I didn’t know where I was going.” Inwardly, she laughed at herself. Not a clue in the world.
The man frowned at her. “Lema…I know you’re upset, but there’s no need to treat me like a stranger. Although, judging by the last time I saw you, we are practically strangers.” Lema stared at him, at a loss for words. She hadn’t thought of this. She hadn’t realized that she must have known people in her ‘old life’, as she was beginning to think of it as.
He frowned harder at her hesitation, and then shrugged. “Oh, come here,” he said as he gave her a tight hug, pressing a number of bruises. “I’ll admit, you scared me. But seriously, where were you?”
Lema finally came to her senses and pushed him away, hard. He took a closer look at her and saw the bruise covering one side of her face. “Lema! What happened?”
“I don’t know you,” she said matter-of-factly. “I’m sorry for bumping into you…and I don’t know how you know my name, but I’ve never seen you before in my life. I don’t even know your name, much less why you have a reason to be friendly with me.” My new life, she thought. I’ve never seen him in my new life. She knew her old life was over. She had no connection to anyone, and there was no one to tell who could be trusted.
The young man stepped back, stunned. “Lema…what in the world?” He shook his head. “I’m sorry, okay? I’ve been too cold, too unwilling to accept your feelings. But you disappearing for an entire month and then pretending you don’t know me…isn’t that a little extreme?”
For a moment, Lema hesitated. She was aware that she could be breaking the heart of someone she had once loved. Someone who maybe still loved her. But she would never know, would she? Also, a month…he had said a month. She met his eyes, a deep black. “Let’s start over, okay? I’m Lema. You seem to already know that. What is your name?”
He obviously wanted to keep arguing, but he took a shaky breath and nodded. “I am Kalisk.” Then his frustration turned to concern as something occurred to him. “Lema…where do you live?”
Lema just shook her head silently.
“What’s your favorite color?”
No answer.
“Who is Riahgle?” Kalisk’s eyes were wide. “Lema, where have you been for the last month?”
“Hospital.”
“Oh, no…oh gosh Lema…you really don’t know who I am, do you? Heck…you don’t even know who you are, do you?”
For the first time in her new, short life, Lema felt something like fear. Her wall of indifference was shaken. “No,” she said in a very, very small voice. “I can’t remember.”
***
For Kalisk, a number of things all came together in a very short time. “Quick,” he said, “you have to come with me.”
And Lema, for lack of anything else to do, was forced to trust him. He pulled her into an alley behind Mallen’s tavern and followed it until they came to a small, bright blue door. “You’re in danger, Lema, more danger than you’ve ever been in your entire life. And trust me,” he added grimly, “trust me when I say that you’ve been in a lot of trouble before.” Then Kalisk helped her through the door.
***


~Caroline Meek

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Shine Like Stars

Philippians 2:14-18
"Do everything without complaining or arguing,  so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life--in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.  But even if I am being poured out like a drink offering on the sacrifice and service coming from your faith, I am glad and rejoice with all of you.  So you too should be glad and rejoice with me."  



~Caroline M.  

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Stained Glass

background photo credit: Adrian Limani
Sometimes God's plans for our lives don't manifest themselves as warm, soft summer breezes.  After all, not much changes if the air is stale and gentle.  Life is not gentle.  But it is the turbulent drafts that catch the leaves during fall.  After the leaves have fallen, it is the wind that picks them back up, and even as they are buffeted and thrown about, they rise.  They fly - their flight is not steady; it is full of ups and downs - but they fly. 
Likewise, if our journey is short, where will it take us?  Surely not much farther than where we originally were.  Then, it is the long trials, the winding paths, that are worthwhile in the end.  We can chose either to protest and wander, searching for a shortcut, or we can run.  We can run with purpose and joy, because we know that there is victory at the end of the road. 


Stained Glass
By Caroline Meek

If the wind blows hard enough –
I won’t fall down,
I’ll fly.

I’ll run - 
I won’t stop going,
When the journey is long.

If the path is too narrow –
I won’t stumble,
I’ll watch.

 I’ll listen - 
I won’t feel blind,
When the night is too black.

If I’m too weak to act –
I won’t despair,
I’ll think.

I’ll speak - 
I won’t hide,
When I feel alone.

If I’m not good enough –
I won’t give up,
I’ll try.

I’ll love.
I won’t freeze,
When it’s cold outside –

If the water’s too deep –
I won’t drown,
I’ll swim.

And if my life shatters –
I won’t trash the shards,
I’ll glue them.

Friday, July 4, 2014

21-Hour Car Rides Call for Serious Backup

So, as I'm packing up for a long car ride - 21 hours to be exact - I go over the necessities for the trip.  It looks something like this...

1. 6 novels.  2 of which consist of 600 pages.  (I can not stress the importance of these items.)  My philosophy on travelling with books is to overestimate the amount I will need - by a lot.  So even though it's unlikely I'll finish all of these, they all must come.  And 4 of them are put into my backpack, which will stay at my side for the whole drive, just in case I'm not in the mood for 3 of them.  ;)  As for the genre of these books...I have one light biography-type book, a mystery, two fantasys, an old classic (school assignment), and one on writing structure and tips.  So typically, variety is as important as quantity.  ;)

2.  A handful of pens.  A large handful.  Mostly ink and gel pens.  Also a couple sketching pencils - only there in case I happen to feel inclined to sketch.  Usually they sit unused for the whole trip.

3.  Paper.  Also vital.  Most important is the 5 section notebook for creative writing.  Not to be forgotten is the clipboard full of blank paper; for scribbling, folding, drawing, or a spontaneous game of hangman - or tic-tac-toe - or connect-the-dots.  

4.  Snacks.  Can't live without them.  Fortunately, I didn't have to worry about these this time because my wonderful mother packed a boatload of them.  I love sweets...and cheesy cracker-type things.  

5. Some money.  Necessary, but not at the top of my list. ;)

6.  Business cards.  About a year ago, Olivia and I ordered 250 free business cards from Vistaprint with info about our book and blog printed on there.  Not sure I'll use them much, but my plan goes somewhere along the lines of leaving a trail of them in rest stops from North Kansas to South Florida.  Anyways...no one really looks at those, do they?  Still...

Trip Journal

Day One of the Very Long Drive


So...we got in the car and started driving!  The hours flew by...I slept for the first one. :)  My mom had packed these fun little sacks to open every hour - they contained everything from Sour Patch candy, to fake mustaches, to marshmallows and aluminum foil.  (That last one must be explained...we used the foil, marshmallows and pipe cleaners to make sculptures.) 


We ate in Nashville, Tennessee, at a little burger place for some reason called Paradise Palace or something.  Sitting in the country music capital of the entire nation, I started dreaming a bit about someday accomplishing something there.  Maybe one of my dreams will come true there, someday.

 


Later...my
mom turned on the Mission Impossible song and I started dancing.  It was about 9:30 pm, so it was dark outside...and we had one of the car lights on.  Right in the middle of my 'spy dance' (which was carried out under the restraint of my seat belt), a car pulls up next to us.  Impulsively (and very unlike me), I do a weird, dramatic like motion - half salute and half wave - at their front window...which happens to be tinted, so I can't see their reaction before I yank my hand back and start laughing, covering my face.  Can't believe I did that.  As I waved, I can recall my expression as being a cross between raised eyebrows and a weird smile.  Goodness knows if the person was even looking...but with our illuminated windows, they would have had a clear view of my friendly-but-slightly-creepy salutation.

We arrived safely in Birmingham, Alabama, and crashed in a hotel.


Day Two of the Slightly Less Very Long Drive

It's funny how when you're resigned to an incredibly long road trip, the first 10 hours go by very quickly.  But then the last 30 minutes feels like 10 whole hours in itself.  Anyways, I entertained myself mostly by reading, and writing these blog posts and other random things.  I also spent time just laying on my pillow against the window and listening to the wide range of songs my family put on, which included the 'Happy Song' (which grew increasingly less happy after it was played about 15 times), the Frozen soundtrack, Jason Mraz, country songs, and the occasional Cuban Salsa.

12:30:
A certain amount of time was also spent with the six of us making duck faces while wearing stick-on mustaches.....and pig faces and detective faces...I don't know why...we kept them on for about an hour.  We went into a restaurant with them on when we stopped once, and collected a couple of stares and laughs.  It was great as long as we stayed in a group, being mutually and justifiably weird as we marched to the bathrooms.  Except, my dad walked in first, a couple minutes ahead of us.  He looked just plain weird.  



 

Just plain weird.

5:30 pm:
So, we drove so far south that the trees changed. That's pretty far south. Tall, skiiiiiiiinny liiiiitle trees with big, clunky, messy canopies. Kinda like a rain forest. They're pretty. I really like the leaves that look like nets over their branches. Also, the occasional lone palm tree in the middle of a field is cool. One thing I love (once we got to Naples) is how the trees lined up against the road a made something like corridors so it feels like we're driving down a tunnel.  



So far the second day has gone slower...we still have about 4 hours. I drove for 1 hour and 15 minutes in Georgia, a couple hours back. That made me kinda tired, so we watched Mega Mind. After I switched seats.


Me being sleepy
Speaking of sleepy, I just found out that the two cute, helpful, little allergy pills that I took last morning before we left home were basically generic Benadryl. Which would explain the hour-long nap I couldn't help but take very early in the trip (abnormal for me because I rarely sleep in the car). Oops. I thought I was just lacking sleep (which was probably true as well) so I pushed through it. That hour was the only hour I slept during the whole 21 hours.

Accomplished on this drive:
Slept: 1 hour
Read: 1 novel
Eaten: Many snacks
Watched: 4 movies
Written: 1 blog post
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And so finally, we're here! The last two days have been great. I caught up some on sleep...and I'm working on some sun. Internet connection is not yet existing in our condo, which is why this post accounts for the last 4 days. :) We've kinda gone back and forth from the condo, to the pool, to the beach, which is great. My book has gone with me to all the places, as well as my snacks.  


We made it, guided by our faithful GPS, with Siri insisting every couple hours that we make a U-turn and leave the gas station, my mom placating her ("Hold on, sweetie, I know..."), and our fearless leader (father and designated driver) making loud and exaggerated Tarzan cries (a video of this phenomenon may or may not be available upon request).  

Us, before we started driving:

(Happy, calm, undaunted by the prospect of 21 hours together in a mini-van.  Clean car, clean faces...excited.)

Us, nearing the end of our drive:

Aged; grown mustaches and grumpy faces.  Progressively more insane.  Notice the trash and stuff now strewn across the back seat.  That was NOT there when we started. ;)

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But yeah!  It was all worth it.  







Because I get to do this.....



Best. Thing. Ever.

So...peace out, everyone!  In a very small nutshell, Florida is awesome.

~Caroline M.  :)



Saturday, June 7, 2014

The End of an Amazing Freshman Year, and the Start of Great Summer

So, I haven't posted in a while, but a lot has been going on.  With the end of school, finals, track, and an internship, I've been super busy.  I thought I'd give a quick update on the last couple months, as summer is finally underway....

Freshman Year in Review:
This year, I started public school at Sumner Academy, and it was probably the best year I've ever had.  I played on both the freshman and varsity volleyball teams, acted in the winter play (12 Angry Jurors), performed in our Poetry Slam, and ran long distance on our track team.  At our League Meet, the Sumner Girls won first place; I received a 2nd place medal for our 4x800m relay, 5th in the mile, and 3rd in the 2 mile.

These activities kept me super happy as well as busy...in addition to these I had some great teachers and met some amazing friends, some of which graduated and will be greatly missed.  :)  Next year, I'm excited to keep participating in much of the same things: especially volleyball and theater.  I am currently writing a One-Act script and I hope to direct it for our performances in the Spring.  I've also got a great schedule of classes for my sophomore year, and I'm especially looking forward to being in Chorale!  :)  Thanks to everyone who made this year super great, and a big thanks to all my family who supported everything I did.  ;)





                                                                               

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And so after the craziness of school and all, I had a week of doing nothing...in which I very quickly started wanting to do something again.  XD

Summer:
Now I have started an internship with Mission Adelante, along with a couple other teens from the neighborhood.  This summer we will be busy learning to hear God's voice, helping lead kids' camps, discipling other teens, and just having fun!  One week in, though slightly exhausted after 40+ hours of 'work' and activities, I'm loving it and can't wait to see where this summer will take us.  :)

 


My 'writing life' has also been pretty busy - at times slow, but steady.  I made a resolution for New Year's that I would write each day for 20 minutes - like creative writing.  And here, on the 158 day of the year, I have managed to keep going, every single day with this!  At the beginning, I knew it would improve my writing skills, but I didn't expect the results I can see now.  To tell the truth, I would recommend this simple exercise to everyone - it makes writing so much easier and definitely a lot less of a daunting task.  Now, every time I sit down, the words come easier.  What I write each day always varies - sometimes it's a poem, a scene for one of my three book projects, a short story, a piece of a script, a 'letter' to a friend, or a random scene from a writing prompt.  No matter what I write, it all helps.  I encourage you all to try this, even for a week!  Set a time goal and just write...no matter if you consider yourself a writer or not.  This can help everyone.  :)

That pretty much wraps it up.  So far my summer has been wonderful, slightly relaxing, and very fun.   I hope yours are all going well!  :)

~Caroline M.





Wednesday, March 5, 2014

The Storm Before the Calm


Why does God do what He does?

We often believe ourselves trampled, beat and worn by the things that happen, but what if these trials have the effect of a spring storm on dead grass?

The idea for this poem came from the video, “The Wall: Hopeless Situation” by Jon Jorgenson and the Anima Series.  Many of the alliterations used were created by him and appeared in the video.

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The Storm Before the Calm
By Caroline Meek

Black dawn and fallen suns find revival,
And so a trial is made a triumph.
Muddled shouts and menacing calls turn loving and instructive,
And so a mess is made a message.
Those beat down and trampled are lifted on golden wings,
And so victims are made victorious.
The impossible riddle is opened for all to see,
And so a test is made a testimony.
The calm cannot be known in full
Without first a storm to strengthen its impact.
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http://www.rgbstock.com/bigphoto/msdTqJo/Sorrow

Zechariah 10:1 - "Ask the LORD for rain in the springtime; it is the LORD who sends the thunderstorms. He gives showers of rain to all people, and plants of the field to everyone."


~Caroline Meek

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Poem: A Face Unknown


A Face Unknown
by Caroline


Why am I here, asks someone unknown.
Here, in a place of two-sided intentions, What will I do?

Our land is obviously divided,
by the professed intent to care and help,
and the hard tendency to reject certain people
who have somehow been pushed into an undeserved field of invisibility. 

We drive people away and refuse to see them
for what they are, in our perpetual condition of great hypocrisy. 

A person tries, but for naught,
for we have already programmed
a system of inevitable failure for those
we have chosen to ignore. 

This person is as an alien in this place,
for it is clear we have nothing in common. 
But does this statement make us aliens as well? 
What planet have we come from? 

Please tell me, what do we think of these people? 
What have we decided?
While we choose to be blind, they see us.

What can I do, asks someone unknown. 
Do I not discern an almost willing spirit
in this person, or is it an illusion? 
For what else can I interpret this determination as? 

Somehow they still go on, despite our walls. 
Could such spirit be learned from? 
We admire such traits in our leaders. 

What are we?  I get the feeling our realities
are compromised or askew, for denying ourselves
the benefit of truly knowing these people. 

A stranger walks among us,
speaking, but who will hear?

Who is this person?  A face unknown,
because who will look at him
with the purpose to love? 
Unknown, this person from another place.